Moving to Florida

I am packing up the necessities and moving myself back to Florida in three weeks.

Why so sudden?

I realized that I am never going to be happy here. It doesn't matter what I do here because I am always unhappy. I have a decent job, I finished my EMT course, I have an opportunity to settle here and go to school but none of that helps. I need sunshine. I know it's silly, but sunshine does make all the difference in my overall outlook. I find it really hard to look forward to my day when all it is is grey outside every single time I look out my window. Florida is my home. I miss my family (even when they are grumpy) and I want time to just focus on school. I want to be a normal full-time college student again. I can't do that here because in order to live day to day I have to work all night. It's really tiring and it is making me physically sick. It is time to move forward.

No, I don't have a concrete plan. I have an idea of what I want to do when I get to Florida, but for once I am going without a certain plan. It seems it doesn't matter what I plan anyway since nothing ever works out the way my plan is. I need more support to have a solid plan anyway. In Washington I feel like I have no support system whatsoever. Yes, I have some decent friends here but they are not the type of friends that are able to provide me with the supportive environment that I want to have around me.

My tentative idea is that I will get there (I will be living with Jenny for awhile) and start looking for an EMT job while I do something else in the meantime. Jenn has told me she might be able to get me a job as a waitress in the meantime.

I'm selling everything I own except the necessities and using that money to pay off some hefty bills. My goal is to get absolutely everything paid off (school loans and medical YUCK) and then return to school full-time in the fall debt-free. I hope this works out. I wanted to buy a car when I got to Florida but I might just hold off until I get everything paid off. If I need a car to get to work and such I will buy one but I am hoping I will be able to use public transportation until I have everything dealt with.

It's scary moving across the country. It's also weird to admit that I am scared. My roommate, Diviya, and I were talking last night and she said that she never thought I could be afraid of something in the future. I always deal with the hard stuff by taking it head on and this time I am nervous about what that actually entails.

Hope all is well with you.